Yup, you didn't see wrongly.. "O" Levels indeed.. "Why now still "O" Levels" you're asking again.. Coz I have plans to retake my "O" Levels next year and then apply as cabin crew in SIA after that!!
"Why so determined?" Coz being a cabin crew (or air-stewardess, I rather call it), is one of the "almost-impossible-thing-happen-to-me-in-my-living-life" just like working in a casino as a Dealer and being a Model. These used to be the "you-think-too-much" industry that when I told my family and friends about them, they look at me like: "What? You? Please la, wake up.." Now, fulfilling some of them made them realized I'm capable too and made them envious that I have the guts to run the extra miles to obtain the impossibles.
Working in a casino as a Dealer and being a Model might seems easy and obtainable to all of you. Do you know how extremely hard it is for me? Imagine a blur simple minded girl so weak in Maths and calculations, going through all the trainings with MBS, having an extremely hard time trying to understand and memorize all the calculations.. I'm so weak in Maths I can't even count 6+7, 8+5, 3+8, 7+5 etc, AND not to mention I have a "special" ability of not being able to see numbers clearly.. For example if you put 8558858585 together, or 6866866868, 5383853853 or 7117177117, or 066060606, or 5335333535, I CAN'T SEE THEM AT ALL~!! I drove all my casino team mates and family members crazy trying so hard to understand everything!! In the end I F**KING OVERCOME IT~!!
And also being a Model. Do you guys know that I suffered Autism before (自闭症) for 2yrs few years ago due to betrayal of 7ys good buddy and family problems? I can't breathe properly when I'm in public, keep having the feeling of someone gonna stab me with a kitchen knife behind me whenever I'm outside, can't communicate nor face anyone straight in the face, scared of people taking my pics, and the feeling of someone peeking at me and planning all the horrible things to do to me etc. It was so serious I almost commit suicide in order to stop all these sufferings. On that last night I decided I had enough, I asked myself how do I want to end all these. It's either end my life, or throw everything away and start anew. Then I thought of all the things I haven't have the chance to go through yet, like marriage, babies, dreams, watching my little bro grow up etc, am I ready to leave? NO!! I decided I am not ready yet, thus I told myself I have to overcome every single thing and pick myself up to live again and here I am!! A confident Model not scared of facing the camera, the public, and able to chat with anyone I wan freely with no boundaries, and no one could ever imagine I suffered Autism before!! Amazing huh!! I can't believe I went through all that!!
So now, here's another amazing "quest" I want to overcome. I never like books. In fact, I hate them and get intimidated by them coz I don't understand them. They seriously scares me alot. I feel I'm being crushed by millions of alphabets. Since Sec 3, I have gave up trying to study and struggled badly for "N" and "O" Levels. I failed terribly as expected. Now, 7ys losing contact with books and words, am I able to pick up studying again? Am I going to leave this world having something to regret? NOOOO~!! I'm gonna overcome the fear of books and retake "O" Levels and APPLY TO BE AN AIR-STEWARDESS~!! My terrible fear of heights and unfamiliar places will be overcome-d next!! If I can overcome so much in my life, I CAN FREAKING OVERCOME ALL THESE~!!
I'm sure all of you will be supportive and happy for me. My purpose of sharing all these here on my blog? Is to let you all know: If a weak little simple naive girl like me can overcome so much and obtained so many "impossibles" in my life, why not YOU? 加油!! Don't ever allow yourself to leave this world with regret!! Good Luck!! *wink*
6 comments:
Hey Rosie,
Jia you and I am sure you can reach you dreams! I too once before never thought all these are possible! You have been amazing and will be even more brilliant! :)
With Love, Ziyi Kuek
Believe in yourself & we believe you can do it. Don't let anyone stop you from living your dreams!
Hey Rosie, thanks for sharing your story. I wish to apologize if I had wronged you at any point of time (unlike some people who would prefer to snub you). I didnt know you were dyslexic or autistic. Im not ashamed to say that I suffered from mild autism when i was younger, my mum only told me abt it early this yr. Im very sure you can and will achieve your dreams, so long as you have faith in yourself and put your mind and heart in anything you do. Ganbatte!! :-)
Hey dear, I happened to just pop by and amazed by how things can be changed as long as one is determined. Yes, I'm sure you can do it since you alrd overcomed so much hurdles in life. By the way you type things out, I can see that you are a very smart young lady, I'm sure O level will be easy for you (: anyway, all the best and thanks for sharing about your life, it encourages. (: take care n see ya arnd (:
Loves, Jesslin.
Hey guys!! Thanks so much for all the encouragements!! Made me even more determined!! Hope things will go well for everyone too!! =)
Hey gal,
I am sure you are able to make it. You have always been a strong and determine gal that I know... All the best to you and remember: have faith in yourself....
Sha gua
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